Every Day is Different


Something I've have been realizing lately...
Every day is different.
My initial reaction to this is anxiety.  I want to have control. Want to plan. Want to KNOW.

Then, I say it again:  Every day is different.

I try letting it sink in... Slowly softening and opening to the truth of it.  Looking past my knee-jerk reaction/rejections of the thought.
Allowing myself to see the opportunities and excitement in this truth.

When I'm feeling discouraged/groundless/grasping, and through this lens of discouragement, I foresee more bleakness in the future... 
I remind myself: Every day is different. 
This reiterates that I DON'T know. And that's a good thing. 

Even when I have an established routine.  This routine reassures me (falsely) that I know what to expect of my days.  This knowing may even lead to an element of boredom/restlessness because "Everything is planned out."

But, really: Every day is different.  Look at the details.
I have new things to learn daily. There are more unexpected doors appearing/opening. 
Possibilities are always expanding. 

Every day is different.  And I'm finding myself incredibly grateful for this fact.
Location: Long Beach, CA, USA

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